Round 6

[Boo Bernis]

(No graphic. On my iPad)

Well nothing too much to update this round. I'm enjoying being comfortable on my tribe. I had Marcus, Rob and Zane on one side and then I also had Natalie in case something weird happened.

In the challenge we really did not want Corinne to get that fire crystal. The fact she won it can create some problems for us for sure. The girls can get together and tie the vote on one of us which is not a good thing.

To make matters worse I got completely screwed by Natalie. I told her I wanted Brenda to leave and that Marcus and Rob wanted to move forward with her and take out Brenda as well. I expected Natalie's 100% trust and loyalty, but I guess me saying she's 100% safe didn't ease her mind even though it was true. She sent what I said to Brenda. Funny for Natalie is she screwed herself. She was safe and now Marcus and Rob also know she can't be trusted and on top of that, Brenda showing that to Rob shows that she's closer to Rob than Natalie. Natalie was original green and already had a target on her back. She was safe with us, but now she made herself the biggest target on our tribe.

I have yet to talk to Corinne or Brenda after the situation, but I plan to cover it up. I doubt it will work, but it will hopefully at least keep the target on Natalie. I don't take kindly to people crossing me and now I have to play make-up and dress-up for the ladies and I have to answer to my guys as well because of her. This is so dumb.

[Boo Bernis]

So I can't be at this challenge, but in some ways, I kind of hope we go to Tribal because I want to see how we will manage this.

I need to talk to Brenda and Corinne both and see where their heads are at. I'm going to go hard after Natalie. I'm nervous about what might happen to me at this point and even my relationship with Rafe, but doing something like that to me doesn't go unnoticed. Whatever the outcome, there is one thing I am sure of....there will be hell to pay!

Natalie has screwed me more times and I'm not putting up with it anymore. She thought she was helping her cause, but she just made 4 instant enemies on a tribe of 7 and in Survivor, that doesn't add up well for her.

[Boo Bernis]

In the middle of our group chat with the rest of our tribe Rob was like:

"I'm going to sign off of my aim app. Boo I need to speak with you after dinner."

I was like...wut?? Ok, I'm not sure why it had to be public. Obviously everyone knows what you're talking about since Nat showed the screenshot of our convo to Brenda and Brenda showed it to Rob and Corinne. I mean, obviously EVERYONE there will know what we're needing to talk about.

It felt like I got my red slip to go to the Principal's office to get detention or something. My little red slip from Rob.



I mean, I think it's silly and knowing him he's going to have a mouthful to say, but I can't really imagine why. I mean, yeah I made a slip up, but someone like Natalie is someone I've played with before and this time we swore each other to the end. Obviously I thought for once he would keep it, but he's already throwing me under the bus after just sending me a "YAY WE'RE TOGETHER" PM. I know he didn't expect it to leak out, but still...

When I confronted him, I tried to be as unintimidating as possible and make it seem like I'm more disappointed than angry. In truth, I am, but it still won't change the fact that Nat betrayed me. Natalie made it seem like she was just trying to get on Brenda's side because it's all she had but she had me and my group of 4 which would have got her through to merge or at least the next swap for sure.

I still can't wrap my head around it. I hope she has more allies, because she has none here.

[Boo Bernis]

Ok so I got to talking to Rob and Brenda and as far as I'm concerned, everything is squared up and fine.

But, I've dealt with this many times (obviously with my mouth) and so I know that there are still going to be harboring feelings. It may not come to surface right now or even at the first tribal we attend, but I know Brenda won't trust me anymore if she did at all and if I want her to, I'm going to have to prove things to her.

Who knows...maybe she bought it. I explained that I knew Nat from a previous game, she bombarded me with questions, and I was trying to appease her to keep her from scrambling too hard. Obviously that blew up in my face, but I think I got it a lot easier than I have in the past. On a scale of 1-10, it was probably a 3 magnitude...at least on the surface. I just need to know in the back of my mind that this isn't over. It's not just all of a sudden vanished; I'll need to watch myself better.

It will make things all better to see Natalie's torch snuffed though. I don't want to be someone that people think they can walk all over...and I won't be here. I'll get my revenge...and revenge is sweet!

[Boo Bernis]

Gosh...after talking to Nat I'm being pulled in my mind. I am stuck between my mind and my heart once again.

I think I still need Natalie moving forward and I need Rob and Marcus. I cannot flip it on Brenda or Corinne at this point and I cannot vote off Zane even though I'd like to. We have to continue to win if I want Nat to stay.

I need both options for myself come merge and Nat may have ruined that for me. I don't fully trust Rob and Marcus just in the sense that I feel I may be their voting pawn...I don't want to be their voting pawn, but I want to stick with them. But at the end of the day, I need to be playing a better game than them...am I? I don't know right now. I need to start thinking long term and I'm not sure where to go right now.

I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place and I'm not certain what to do. Hopefully I won't have to make a decision right now by going to Tribal and I'll be able to sit middle for a while. If some of these green people don't start going home, I'll need to reconsider a lot of things, but I need to move forward with people I can trust and people that will be beneficial to me. My strategy can't just be "vote out the old Tranny tribe" like Rob's is. It won't be effective and it will cut out a huge pool of people to work with. Moving forward I have to keep my options open.

[Boo Bernis]

I really wish I could participate in this challenge (total Andy challenge btw!! =P) When I hear "live" it means I need to be there at the beginning, but had I known it was going to still be going on, I could be very helpful today. Which sucks, but maybe I'd be knocked out by now. It's all up to Nat and Marcus by the way things fell, I guess.

At first things were looking bleak, but somehow we got Blue down to their 2 weakest members somehow and once Eddie is gone, it's a home stretch. Even at this point, Nat and Marcus just need to stay solid. Kat won't be coming around to do damage anytime soon, and even if they both showed up right now, we'd still win as long as our 2 people continue.

It will be nice not going to Tribal because if we did, I'd be forced to either turn on my trio, or vote out Nat and someone who could potentially be a very strong ally that people won't expect.

The thing I'm worried about is if we go to Tribal, between Gina and Pete they have 3 fire crystals. Nat could potentially take one of us out alone with just the crystals (hence why I hate these double vote/vote null things). In the end, I'm confident if we were to go to Tribal they would take out Rob if any of us, but I'm not ready to lose him yet. I still have needs for both my trio and Natalie. Hopefully Natalie and Rafe can turn into another trio for me which is why we can't go to Tribal right now because I'll lose a member of either trio. But I am worried that since Orange is going to Tribal and forced to vote one of themselves out, it will come down to Brandon or Rafe. Brandon isn't the easiest to talk to, but I've been told he's more 'in' with the other 2 than Rafe is. I'm hoping that isn't the case because I need Rafe.

Rob can be saved to take out for later if it is fitting to do so. As long as Natalie can prove to me that she is in fact loyal to me, I still would like to take that far because I don't believe in Rob's philosophy in the game right now. But I will say that the target Rob has on his back from being overly vocal about being against green really makes me think I need him to make sure that target is not me. Like I said, I'm trying to keep my options open.

Speaking of, I talked to Stephanie the other day about keeping tabs and working together in the future. She said we were on the same page, so I really need to get to talk with her very soon over aim so we can plan something out. I expect a big merge rather than another swap, but you never know. I'm interested to see where things play out.i sense I'm not in the best position of everyone, but I'm in a good enough one where I can slip by unscathed for a bit enough to establish myself well and burn some people along the way in order to advance myself.

Like I said, this isn't going to be an easygoing Boo; I'm out for blood!

[Boo Bernis]

My wrist hurts from typing that on my iPad. ##firstworldproblems

[Ted Rogers]

Oh no, this challenge was mine, also did it in Season 1.

[Amanda Kimmel]

Apr 10, 2013 13:26:10 GMT -5 Ted Rogers said:

Oh no, this challenge was mine, also did it in Season 1.

Yeah, but didn't you use things from my series as inspiration for it?

[Ted Rogers]

Apr 10, 2013 14:09:35 GMT -5 Amanda Kimmel said:

Apr 10, 2013 13:26:10 GMT -5 Ted Rogers said:

Oh no, this challenge was mine, also did it in Season 1.

Yeah, but didn't you use things from my series as inspiration for it?

Warzone? hmm no particular challenges come to mind, I suppose it is someone like a "Mano a Mano" live on the boards maybe.

[Boo Bernis]

And I don't think that was so much live...because it lasted so long. I pictured it would be over quicker. But I also don't understand the difference between live and semi-live so eh...