Post by Matt Bischoff on Apr 3, 2013 20:19:24 GMT -5
Welp! That's pretty much it. I don't see myself wiggling my way out of this one. Unless something fucking crazy happens. So I have decided to give my own eulogy..
5 years ago, I played my first game. It was on MySpace of all places! That was back when I was 20, and still very... young ( for a lack of a better word.) I was great! I was "myself" more in that game than in any other. This was at the height of my Survivor fandom. I loved every minute of that game. And, imagine that, I won.
My second game followed a few months later, still on MySpace, but this time as an alias. I was great! I really got into character! I made some cool friends in that game, ones that I came to respect. Ones that I gave up the win for at the final 3, because I knew they had played better in challenges, and worked harder for it than I did. I respected them too much, and respected the game too much, if I respected the game, I should have claimed my title.
During my second, I also hosted a game. I thought it went well, a lot of inactives though. You try to make the challenges unique, you try to make the game fun, and fair, but easily enough, someone gets pissed off at a call you make. This is what showed me the other side of things, and I have a lot of respect for what you guys do (Ted and Ghandia's)!!
My 3rd game was around 2 years ago. I was on a tribe that was winning, everything was going smoothly. I was really in charge of what was going on around me. But something was different. Socially, I was a different person. I wasn't the happy go lucky kid that won his first Org. I made careless mistakes, and aligned with one too many people, and got idoled out. To this day, this is the only time I have been voted out. (That will soon no longer have that distinction though haha!)
After my 3rd game, I got a chance to PW. I loved it! I got to sit back and analyse what was happening in the game! So much fun!
My 4th game was an All stars game. This is where I saw the dark side of ORGs. Everybody knew everybody, and it got WAY personal WAY fast. That's not how the game should be. We all do it to have fun, and those players were just being nasty. I ended up quitting that game, to save a tribmate that was in trouble because I couldn't handle it anymore. I'm glad I got out when I did, half the cast ended up quitting out of spite of the other players. Literally a 8 person alliance quit in the middle of the game, and would not serve in a jury. I felt so bad for the people who wanted to play, as well as the hosts.
My 5th game was also a tough one for me. At the merge, I didn't have the numbers, so my tribe was pagonged out. I was the last one standing, and went on an immunity streak all the way to the final 3. At FTC, all of my former tribe mates failed to show, and the other tribe ripped me apart for playing a physical game instead of a stratigic one. Being on the outside left me no choice, I had to do it! This, was the first time I swore to never play again.
However, about a year ago, I got the itch (no not crabs lol). I had to play again. I played the perfect game! Except for one thing. I was not myself. I was very stratigical. I won most of the challenges. But in the end, I neglected my social game, and in the F2 it cost me. I wasn't the same kid that played the first game. I felt like I didn't have it in me anymore. That I just wasn't the person I was, and that I could probably get that back. This was the second time I swore I was done.
And that brings us to now...
I played very socially! Steph is amazing! Rob is amazing! Boo is really cool! Rafe is awesome! Brenda, despite being a massive pain in the ass, is a fantastice person. Stratigically, I have nothing to be ashamed of. Socially I have nothing to be ashamed of. Physically.... Well fuck that! Am I right? Haha. However, the tides of the game will most likely send me packing. I'm a fighter, and I'm not going out like a bitch. I will accept my fate and my torch being snuffed. That's the game that I used to love so much. And I accept my fate.
Will I play again. No. I don't have that drive I used to, I don't have whatever "it" was that made me great as a person. Maybe this is a sign, that I'm just an old dinosaur, who needs to stop playing around, to to just let survivor go. Now, being almost 25 isn't nessessarly that old, but in org terms, I have been around for a long time. Too long.
So I said this at the beginning, and I say it now.
BRING IT TED!!
I'm ready for my legacy to be over, and when I move past it, I know I can, and will hold my head high.
5 years ago, I played my first game. It was on MySpace of all places! That was back when I was 20, and still very... young ( for a lack of a better word.) I was great! I was "myself" more in that game than in any other. This was at the height of my Survivor fandom. I loved every minute of that game. And, imagine that, I won.
My second game followed a few months later, still on MySpace, but this time as an alias. I was great! I really got into character! I made some cool friends in that game, ones that I came to respect. Ones that I gave up the win for at the final 3, because I knew they had played better in challenges, and worked harder for it than I did. I respected them too much, and respected the game too much, if I respected the game, I should have claimed my title.
During my second, I also hosted a game. I thought it went well, a lot of inactives though. You try to make the challenges unique, you try to make the game fun, and fair, but easily enough, someone gets pissed off at a call you make. This is what showed me the other side of things, and I have a lot of respect for what you guys do (Ted and Ghandia's)!!
My 3rd game was around 2 years ago. I was on a tribe that was winning, everything was going smoothly. I was really in charge of what was going on around me. But something was different. Socially, I was a different person. I wasn't the happy go lucky kid that won his first Org. I made careless mistakes, and aligned with one too many people, and got idoled out. To this day, this is the only time I have been voted out. (That will soon no longer have that distinction though haha!)
After my 3rd game, I got a chance to PW. I loved it! I got to sit back and analyse what was happening in the game! So much fun!
My 4th game was an All stars game. This is where I saw the dark side of ORGs. Everybody knew everybody, and it got WAY personal WAY fast. That's not how the game should be. We all do it to have fun, and those players were just being nasty. I ended up quitting that game, to save a tribmate that was in trouble because I couldn't handle it anymore. I'm glad I got out when I did, half the cast ended up quitting out of spite of the other players. Literally a 8 person alliance quit in the middle of the game, and would not serve in a jury. I felt so bad for the people who wanted to play, as well as the hosts.
My 5th game was also a tough one for me. At the merge, I didn't have the numbers, so my tribe was pagonged out. I was the last one standing, and went on an immunity streak all the way to the final 3. At FTC, all of my former tribe mates failed to show, and the other tribe ripped me apart for playing a physical game instead of a stratigic one. Being on the outside left me no choice, I had to do it! This, was the first time I swore to never play again.
However, about a year ago, I got the itch (no not crabs lol). I had to play again. I played the perfect game! Except for one thing. I was not myself. I was very stratigical. I won most of the challenges. But in the end, I neglected my social game, and in the F2 it cost me. I wasn't the same kid that played the first game. I felt like I didn't have it in me anymore. That I just wasn't the person I was, and that I could probably get that back. This was the second time I swore I was done.
And that brings us to now...
I played very socially! Steph is amazing! Rob is amazing! Boo is really cool! Rafe is awesome! Brenda, despite being a massive pain in the ass, is a fantastice person. Stratigically, I have nothing to be ashamed of. Socially I have nothing to be ashamed of. Physically.... Well fuck that! Am I right? Haha. However, the tides of the game will most likely send me packing. I'm a fighter, and I'm not going out like a bitch. I will accept my fate and my torch being snuffed. That's the game that I used to love so much. And I accept my fate.
Will I play again. No. I don't have that drive I used to, I don't have whatever "it" was that made me great as a person. Maybe this is a sign, that I'm just an old dinosaur, who needs to stop playing around, to to just let survivor go. Now, being almost 25 isn't nessessarly that old, but in org terms, I have been around for a long time. Too long.
So I said this at the beginning, and I say it now.
BRING IT TED!!
I'm ready for my legacy to be over, and when I move past it, I know I can, and will hold my head high.