Post by Stephanie Valencia on Mar 29, 2013 11:42:59 GMT -5
Well, goodbye Natalie. Nice knowing (er, never meeting) you.
Oh, hey Danni, you're still here? Count yourself lucky.
I hate that I won't be online when tonight's Immunity Challenge is posted. My family celebrates Easter and tonight is our Good Friday dinner, so I won't be able to sign in until later tonight. (Did I mention I'm not even remotely religious? But, alas, my presence is required.) Bright side: Good Friday dinner = tons of seafood.
On the Tingbani front, I have some making up to do. The feeling I have right now is similar to a hangover after a really intense party; you have almost no memory of what happened the night before, you call a few friends but nobody answers the phone, and it starts to dawn on you that you probably pissed off a lot of people in your drunken stupor. No friends the morning after; that's how I feel right now. I'm pretty sure that I really upset Brenda with my behaviour after losing the first Immunity Challenge. I really need to ease up on my aggression and curb my temper a bit. I apologized to her a lot but, obviously, actions speak louder than words and I need to rebuild that trust that she's lost in me. I don't want to lose her as an ally so it's important for me to be on my best behaviour. Hell, maybe I'll even apologize to Danni (publicly?) so that Brenda can see me making an effort to mend fences and play nice. Big smiles!
Speaking of big smiles, I think I might be putting one on a few too many male faces on this island. In real life, guys mistake my being nice for flirting all the time. It's annoying but it's just the way it is. But damn, maybe I'm just legitimately too flirtatious. I've already talked about Rob ad infinitum so I'll spend some time on the others.
It's crucial that none of these guys ever talk to each other about me except in totally broad terms. Adam and Rob can't know about each other. And, obviously, no one else can know how close I am to either of them. My ultimate goal is to make it to the merge with Brenda as my ally and enough men on my side that, if Tingbani becomes targetted, I'll be totally safe. That's why I'm especially focusing on Rob, Matt, and Boo from Saayazu, and Adam, Rafe, and Pete from Nyonni. I'm confident that they're going to do well on their tribes and, in an ideal situation, all six of them make it to merge and I'll have six guys backing me up and keeping me safe.
P.S.: So honoured to be quoted as the first episode title! Thanks, Amanda!
Oh, hey Danni, you're still here? Count yourself lucky.
I hate that I won't be online when tonight's Immunity Challenge is posted. My family celebrates Easter and tonight is our Good Friday dinner, so I won't be able to sign in until later tonight. (Did I mention I'm not even remotely religious? But, alas, my presence is required.) Bright side: Good Friday dinner = tons of seafood.
On the Tingbani front, I have some making up to do. The feeling I have right now is similar to a hangover after a really intense party; you have almost no memory of what happened the night before, you call a few friends but nobody answers the phone, and it starts to dawn on you that you probably pissed off a lot of people in your drunken stupor. No friends the morning after; that's how I feel right now. I'm pretty sure that I really upset Brenda with my behaviour after losing the first Immunity Challenge. I really need to ease up on my aggression and curb my temper a bit. I apologized to her a lot but, obviously, actions speak louder than words and I need to rebuild that trust that she's lost in me. I don't want to lose her as an ally so it's important for me to be on my best behaviour. Hell, maybe I'll even apologize to Danni (publicly?) so that Brenda can see me making an effort to mend fences and play nice. Big smiles!
Speaking of big smiles, I think I might be putting one on a few too many male faces on this island. In real life, guys mistake my being nice for flirting all the time. It's annoying but it's just the way it is. But damn, maybe I'm just legitimately too flirtatious. I've already talked about Rob ad infinitum so I'll spend some time on the others.
- Pete and I have been private-messaging back and forth. It's nothing major or super flirtatious, but we had some awkward interactions near the beginning and now we just kind of joke around with one another. That said, I don't trust him at all. After the tribes were announced, he told me point blank that he probably wouldn't talk to me very much because we weren't on the same tribe. But after we lost the first Immunity Challenge, it was all questions. I could tell he was fishing for information so I teased him a bit, dangled some information in front of his face, and then finally told him that I just couldn't divulge a Tingbani secret. He laughed.
- Rafe is hilarious. We've never talked on AIM but we've exchanged a lot of private messages. Everything is a total joke with him, we send each other the stupidest, most random things, and during these past few days, it was such a welcome break from the game. I want to keep building my relationship with Rafe because it'll definitely benefit me later in the game once we merge. I want as many people to have my back as possible and I think that Rafe is a great choice.
- Boo has told me I'm one of his favourite people in the game. Was he just buttering me up? It's possible. But he's a really cool guy and I'm enjoying getting to know him. Like Rafe, I want to keep nurturing my relationship with Boo in order to foster a sense of trust between us.
- Oh, Adam. I don't know what to say about Adam. He tells me he misses me every time we talk and he's utterly saccharine at all times. I'm filled with guilt and shame whenever our conversations end because I'm fully aware that I'm leading him on and he has no idea about Rob—nor does he have any clue that manipulating men is a) something I'm very good at, and b) how I intend to win this game. This, for me, is the tension between the personal and the strategic. I don't want to legitimately hurt anybody's feelings in a way that goes beyond the game. But Adam is the type to take things more seriously than they are, so what am I supposed to do?
It's crucial that none of these guys ever talk to each other about me except in totally broad terms. Adam and Rob can't know about each other. And, obviously, no one else can know how close I am to either of them. My ultimate goal is to make it to the merge with Brenda as my ally and enough men on my side that, if Tingbani becomes targetted, I'll be totally safe. That's why I'm especially focusing on Rob, Matt, and Boo from Saayazu, and Adam, Rafe, and Pete from Nyonni. I'm confident that they're going to do well on their tribes and, in an ideal situation, all six of them make it to merge and I'll have six guys backing me up and keeping me safe.
P.S.: So honoured to be quoted as the first episode title! Thanks, Amanda!
